Starting over again

For weeks, I always wake up at the wrong side of the bed. I'm always irritated and if I don't have any classes, maybe I'm just lurking at my bed, feeling sorry for myself. I pity myself for being one of the unemployed Filipinos. I pity myself because I can't even help my parents in their financial problems. They don't oblige me to do so but I feel they are my responsibility. Or at least my younger brother and sisters. How I wish I could pay their tuition fees or even give them their allowances. I want to lighten the loads of my parents. They are not getting any younger and I want them to enjoy their lives to the fullest. That's why even if I got married, I and my husband agreed that we must not have any child yet. We're still young and we have to save for our future children. He didn't mind 'though if I help my parents and younger siblings. Unlike him whose sisters were already settled in their own families, I have still brother and sisters in elementary. Being the third among the eight children, I feel that I have to help them. My eldest brother and sister have child already so they can't oblige themselves to help our parents. They have their own family to tend to.

And now I'm starting over again... and I'm not alone. Tomorrow, I have to accomplish the following:
1. NBI clearance (for abroad since I'm planning to apply overseas)
2. Apply for a new SSS I.D. with my married name
3. Change my maiden name in my passport
4. Renew my driver's license at the same time change my maiden name (this is one of the 'rewards' of being married...change all your documents into your husband's surname!)
5. Change my status in my TIN

After getting all my documents right, I will go to the agency where I planned to apply. I'm keeping my fingers crossed. I hope, I will be lucky in my own year.